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Raw milk at The Calf at Foot Dairy

August 20, 2016 13 Comments Filed Under: Uncategorized

“I fucking hate men. Male farmers resent female farmers – they want to control you. My dad always said ‘you can’t farm, there’s no money in it’. But I don’t do it for the money. I do it so I can sleep at night.`”

“If women were still the farmers, farming would be different. You don’t have to push animals so hard. There wouldn’t be any of this industrialisation; the cruelty, the chemicals. When I go to a supermarket, that’s what I see: aisles full of chemicals.”

The fierce and passionate Fiona Provan, owner of The Calf at Foot Dairy on the Suffolk/Norfolk border on the Somerleyton Estate, is trying to change dairy farming. I interviewed her after a visit to her ‘parlour’, a large airy wooden barn with chandeliers, sofas and book shelves. In a sunlit corner, one of her ‘dairy angels’, Amy, milked a cow whose tail lashed her softly in the face. Amy looks like a milk maid from a children’s story book, all blonde hair, perfect creamy skin and laughing blue eyes.

Fiona continues: “My father was a vet, he was a very hard man. I was born in the ’60s. I saw the way farming was going, how industrialisation became popular with farmers. My father worked very hard; 24/7, he was under pressure. The strain of running his own business made him lose his temper. In those days the drugs he gave to animals were dispensed from large glass bottles, he’d mix them up himself. He got allergies.

“I was brought up in Hertfordshire but 15 years ago I moved to the Suffolk/Norfolk border. I was desperate to set up a farm. I hated school. I wanted to be outside with the cows. The neighbours were dairy farmers. My best memories of childhood were from there. I was a naughty girl at school, always in trouble.

“At 16 I left school and started as a stockman on a dairy farm. Women always make the best stockmen. They have the eye. When humans first started farming it was the women that did it, the men were out hunting.

“At 22 I got married and I was given a house cow by my father, a Jersey cow. For a while I was very depressed. I was campaigning for animal rights but it wasn’t enough. When I became a mother myself I decided that I must start an ethical dairy. I couldn’t drink milk until I did that.

“You know most people don’t know that cow milk is mother’s milk. I had a human mother in here with a babe in arms. She was shocked when she realised that commercial milk is a result of taking calves away from their mothers.

“At last people are beginning to care. My aim before I die is to create a movement. I want other people to start ethical dairies. I want competition.

“It’s difficult being a female farmer. My kids are in their late 20s now. I’ve been alone for 8 years. People are hostile, I get abuse, I’ve had my tyres slashed.

“It’s been difficult, I’ve had to move farms often. I have no grass. I need more grass for the cows to feed on. I need more funding, and I might start a crowd funder. My girls help me, my ‘dairy angels’. I can’t afford to employ people so they are volunteers. These girls come from towns and flats in cities, I’ve had them milking cows, injecting sperm within a week.”

The Calf at Foot Dairy has around thirty cows, which are either Jersey, Red Polls or a combination. Apparently cows cost around £500 each. Here, each cow has a name – Lily, Thistle, Dottie, Tess, Bluebell – and a strong personality. “Some cows are silly. Others are motherly,” it is explained. “They are very intelligent.”

As a chef and food writer, I’ve been interested by raw milk for a while. It boasts many of the same benefits as human breast milk, and is also put on cuts and burns to promote healing. I’ve tried donkey milk, which is naturally very sweet; mares’ milk, again sweeter than cow; goats’ and sheep’s milk; and, when I journeyed through Tibet, I ate yak’s milk products. I also drink soy milk (apparently good for the menopause) and nut milk.

The United Kingdom has a huge per capita consumption of cow’s milk, third behind Ireland and Finland. I was surprised by this as in both the US and Scandinavia grown ups drink glasses of milk with their food. But this is probably down to the milk in our tea. (The French, of course, eat more cheese and butter than any other country.) But I know little about farming, so I put more questions to Fiona.

Tell me about industrial dairy farming.
Calves are separated from their mothers. I never do that. They drink from buckets. I would never allow that.

Why?
Calves must drink milk with their chin tipped up, otherwise they don’t get the nutrition. They can drink water with their chin down.
(In normal dairies) calves weren’t allowed to suck. They suck on anything they can, so they get abcesses and sores.
The calves stay on for 5 months – by that I mean they stay with mum. Then the weaners are sold on. The mum is still grieving.
At The Calf At Foot Dairy, the calves stay on for a minimum of 9 months, up to 12 months.
Each cow and calf is judged on its own merit. We use our intuition and instincts as to when the calf should wean.

Is it like human babies? They start to want solids?
Calves start to eat grass at 2 weeks old.  It’s more that mum gets run down, I call it ‘melting’. She loses energy, looks a bit droopy.

How do you have enough milk to sell to the public?
In the first couple of months there is plenty of milk, in fact they have enough milk for four calves. Usually they only have one calf, sometimes, rarely, twins. At five months I might separate the calf and cow overnight to give mum a rest.
Two or three months later I start to turn them away.

What do you mean?
They come to get milked and I turn them away.

Do they like being milked? Just like human mothers like breast feeding?
Yes. Being milked is a relief for them. They get that surge of oxytocin, that lovely dreamy feeling.

Do you milk by hand?
No, we have a milking machine. They come to the parlour – that’s what we call the milking bit of the barn.
Right now in August, it’s tricky to milk the cows: there are the biting flies, it’s very uncomfortable for them and for the milkers.

On food and the environment:
I don’t push for the local thing, I believe in sourcing the best suppliers. You can buy online now so this isn’t too difficult.
I don’t believe in a vegan diet either, I think it will completely destroy diversity. It relies on monocultures like soy, of which virtually all of it is GM. We’ve got a 100 years of topsoil left, you know. That’s it. Animals grazing is vital for diversity and for the soil. Militant vegans from the US have trashed my FB page with vile, threatening comments.

On health benefits:
Raw milk is also good for vaginal atrophy and thrush. Just inject it in, it’ll sort it. You can drink it too, that helps, but really I don’t give a toss about human health.

On ethical dairies:
I spoke a couple of years ago at the Real Farming Conference in Oxford. Now it’s bigger than the official farming conference.
The only other ethical dairy like mine is Belvoir Ridge (pronounced Beaver) in Nottingham. They heard me at the conference. They took it up, haven’t looked back since.
Fen Farm and Hook and Son are both organic and raw dairies but not ethical like mine. That’s why my milk is expensive, the most expensive.

 

FAQS

What is raw milk?
It’s unpasteurised, non-homogenised milk direct from the cow. It contains nutrients such as vitamin C, which is reduced by heat treatments. It is also referred to as ‘white blood’ because it contains living white blood cells.

In many countries it is illegal to sell raw milk: it is legal in England, but not in Scotland. The Calf At Foot Dairy therefore ship quite a bit of raw milk to Scotland.

  • Pasteurisation (named after Louis Pasteur) is a process of heating the milk and cooling it to rid it of any dodgy bacteria. Flash pasteurisation means that milk will last for 2 to 3 weeks. Most British milk is pasteurised.
  • UHT (Ultra-Heat Treatment) means milk is heated up to an even higher temperature. It lasts up to 9 months.
  • Homogenisation is the process of breaking down fat globules in milk (which usually rise to the top and become cream) until they are tiny, thereby resisting separation. Most US and European milk is both pasteurised and homogenised. This is why it’s impossible to get a decent cup of tea anywhere but in the UK. Homogenised milk in tea tastes weird and synthetic.

Does raw milk taste better?
It has a fuller, fattier, more complex flavour. I’d say you can taste the farmyard in it. It is unprocessed and therefore more nutritious. It contains good cholesterol and higher cholesterol is now associated with a longer life.

Is raw milk dangerous?
Raw milk can contain dangerous bacteria such as e coli, salmonella, TB and listeria. But if it is obtained from a hygienic dairy farm, you should have no health problems. The ‘dangerous’ reputation of raw milk is rather outdated. It is now thought to be good for allergies such as eczema and hay fever.

Advantages of raw milk:

  • Raw milk contains a ‘creamline’, where you can see the difference between milk and cream, which rises to the top. The fat in cream is an aid to losing weight – it’s healthy fat.
  • You can make cheese and yoghurt from it. Heating milk, as in pasteurisation, means that it is difficult for the curds to adhere to each other.
  • If you are lactose intolerant, which many people are unless you are of Northern European descent, you can often tolerate raw milk. The Calf at Foot Dairy explains:

“Lactose is milk sugar. If you drink the kind of untreated milk produced at The Calf at Foot Dairy, the lactose is broken down in your body by the enzyme lactase. In pasteurised milk, this enzyme is destroyed by the heat treatment. As a result, more and more people are finding themselves to be lactose intolerant simply as a result of not being able to break down this sugar.  With care in returning to a traditional, nutrient-dense diet which includes unadulterated raw milk, this intolerance can be reversed.”

  • The animals are treated better.

Industrial dairies: 
Cows in industrial dairies have their calves removed at an early age. The calves are fed milk replacers as all the milk meant for them is given to humans. The cows are forced into pregnancy and lactation at an early age (18 months rather than 2 years old). This is repeated quickly, forcing the pace rather than allowing the cows to get pregnant at a natural and healthy rhythm. Industrial cows rarely live past 5 years old, having suffered 3 ‘rotations’ (pregnancy and lactation) already. They are given antibiotics to prevent illness, which comes through into the milk.

Ethical dairies:
The cows keep their calves, feeding them for at least 9 months. The only milk that is taken is excess milk. They are untethered as they are being milked. The cows don’t get pregnant every year, only when they are ready. As a result, they are healthy and happy and live often until 12 years old. They are not culled once they have outlived milking. They are grass fed rather than grain fed. Grass feeding cows is better than water guzzling grain feed.

We should appreciate the milk given by animals – it is a precious resource, not to be taken lightly. At the moment milk is cheaper than bottled water. Food is too cheap in this country.

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  1. Lisa (aka Loopygirl)

    August 20, 2016 at 5:57 pm

    What an amazing story, thanks to Fiona for sharing it.
    When I was young my dad worked on a dairy farm and he'd come home with empty lemonade bottles full of raw milk, it was the best thing to put on your breakfast, especially the creamy top.
    If it was available near me now, I'd definitely buy it (I'm in Northumberland) and I believe the benefits in drinking it are real (I was never ill as a kid) and I hope that we see more raw milk available (preferably from an ethical dairy too).
    It's a crying shame that milk is cheaper than water, and it's the animals who suffer (I didn't know how commercial dairy farming was done until I read this, and it makes me sad).
    I hope we see more people like Fiona and good luck to her x

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    • Kerstin Rodgers aka MsMarmiteLover

      August 20, 2016 at 9:37 pm

      Hi Lisa,
      Fiona does ship the milk all over Britain. It's horrendous how industrial farms treat cows. Thanks so much for commenting. x

      Reply
  2. Nic M

    August 20, 2016 at 6:38 pm

    Superb piece, as good a depiction of the personality and drive of an interviewee as I have ever read.

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    • Kerstin Rodgers aka MsMarmiteLover

      August 20, 2016 at 9:38 pm

      Thanks Nic. Fiona doesn't mince her words and I LOVE that. x

      Reply
  3. Rachel Lucas

    August 20, 2016 at 9:15 pm

    Absolutely brilliant post…the milk is raw and natural and so is she. What heart and guts. Inspirational. Not only are commercial dairy cows deprived of their newly born calves, but if they are male they are usually killed immediately as they are of no further use. The dairy industry is a still largely hidden horror story that needs to be told…and this post has hopefully started it. I wish I lived closer and could buy from the farm…

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    • Kerstin Rodgers aka MsMarmiteLover

      August 20, 2016 at 9:39 pm

      Thank you Rachel. Heart and guts, yes!
      As Fiona said, most people don't even know what milk is. They don't know it's the milk for cow babies.
      You can order her gorgeous milk.
      Thanks for commenting x

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  4. Heidi

    August 21, 2016 at 6:14 am

    I would still be massively cautious about raw milk, especially serving it to a child. I don't think the health risks have been overstated at all. In the picture of the lady filling bottles as well; there are multiple hygiene hazards which wouldn't be tolerated in a dairy packing pasteurised milk. I'm sure there are health benefits but there have been recent illnesses associated with raw milk where it's been consumed in the world (especially with E Coli). It might be natural but only at point of production. It isn't then natural to package it, store it in a fridge and consume later when bacteria like Listeria could have had a chance to grow. The problem is as well even if the farm regularly do microbiological testing; the results are likely to come back after the milk has been consumed.

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    • Kerstin Rodgers aka MsMarmiteLover

      August 21, 2016 at 11:35 am

      Hi Heidi, thanks for commenting. I know you are a food scientist and I don't really have a reply. Hopefully someone else will.

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    • Anonymous

      May 3, 2017 at 3:43 pm

      I'd rather take that risk than continue to drink milk from traumatised cows to be honest. I only found out recently that the calves are taken from their mothers immediately as I was led to believe we were only taking the surplus. I am a tea-o-holic, so I've spent the last 4 months trying to find a vegan alternative to replace milk in tea, but they all make the tea taste weird. So now I'm looking for real milk without the cruelty. I know I shouldn't be drinking it at all as it's meant for the calves, so I do so with the knowledge that it's at my own risk. Maybe a punishment is well deserved. But either way, this has to be better than the cruelty we've been inflicting on dairy cows for decades. There is a 3rd option now I think about it and that would be to pasturise it myself. Hmmm, seems I need to do some research.

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  5. Anonymous

    October 11, 2016 at 3:51 pm

    How does organic milk compare in terms of 'kindness ' to the cows? I buy organic on the assumption that it is kinder but am not really sure.

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    • Kerstin Rodgers aka MsMarmiteLover

      October 13, 2016 at 10:09 am

      Fiona doesn't think organic is that much kinder to cows. It's mostly marketing. They are given organic food and free pasture but can still be treated cruelly. Their calves are still separated early. They cannot be treated with antibiotics when ill which means sometimes their pus is in the milk because some farmers don't want to remove the sick cow from the herd. They are still overmilked which leads to short life expectancy.

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  6. Anonymous

    February 9, 2017 at 11:41 am

    I LOVE HERRRRRR!!!!!! Wish there were more people like this!! Shouldn't be so rare!!

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  7. Robert Smith

    January 11, 2021 at 8:22 pm

    I hope this moves into the cheese industry, as then the milk can be sold all over the world and at a price that will make it financially sustainable. I miss pizza, but I just can’t. Not all men are like that; most are not. The United States was filled with men who respected nature and animals who were overrun by giant industrial facilities leaving them on reservations. I myself, a man, led my wife and entire family into veganism for animal care and the one who became vegan first was my old man, all women refused to stop eating milk and cheese, except for my wife, even after being shown graphically about the dairy industry, so it’s a case-by-case. “The righteous cares for the life of the beast, but the tender mercies of the wicked are cruel” – Prov. 12:10. Before JESUS CHRIST spoke to HIS prophet HE first spoke through the donkey he rode and rebuked him for hitting the donkey three times and-like the Garden of Eden and as shown in Revelations-animal cruelty was not the design and will be completely removed for all of eternity when The LORD JESUS CHRIST takes control away from humans who run a cruel world, and puts it back in HIS own hands and the hands of those who accept HIM being punished in their place and as LORD of HIS own farm (creation).

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